Laundry?

 

Since I have had my morning/day sickness strike I have neglected such things as...cleaning my house, washing the dishes, washing my face, making diner, doing the laundry, making the bed, getting Koli dressed. I have taken one at least, almost always two naps a day. We watched A LOT of Baby Signing Time. And well, I've pretty much stopped being a good human/wife who does all those nice things. But I've kind of loved the lazy time I've spent with Koli while she crawls all over me bringing me one book after another then signs eat all day long till I finally get up and get her a cracker that she's been wishing for and then we go back to laying. Nog came home from work, saw the Arizona room that we now live in and says "sick, this room is disgusting." Crumbs and all sorts of food smashed in the carpet, clothes everywhere. Diapers that had been changed but not taken out to the trash, and us just laying there looking dead, looking bored out of our minds but not willing to get up and do something about it. Well guess what!!! After we came back from a nice weekend stay at the cabin to visit my sister for her sweet baby boys blessing I came home and decided no matter how I feel I am getting that laundry done. And guess what I DID. I am so proud of myself. Haha ya I am. It had gotten so bad that from the last cabin trip the week prior our suitcase was still full not even taking out my hairbrush or curling iron to get ready and not lifting a finger to put any of it away. If you know me you know that my favorite part of a vacation, well the aftermath, is coming home and putting all of our stuff away, because I'm so excited to be back home. Nog loves that about me because he's never had to help put stuff away, and I find great satisfaction in getting everything back to the way it should be. But well not this time. Nog and I would just laugh at how gross we are, well how gross I am and what we lived in. But So worth it of course and excited to go through it. So anyway back on track, I did 8 loads of laundry today! It got so bad that I was wearing the most oddest attire because well I ran out of pj's to wear so I was resorting to some strange things. And had NO clean underclothes to wear... not good.... It took ALL day literally and while I got started it felt so good that I went on a cleaning spree and cleaned the entire house including mopping. I am so proud over here. I feel like a good wife again and Nog is so grateful. It's funny how when you stop doing everything including getting ready that now when I do I suddenly look so much more attractive to him. I'm liking this. Life is good over here and now I won't be so embarrassed when company is over because yep I'm wearing clean clothes and bonus I found $20.46 in the wash. (thumbs up) which Nog says is probably his, but I'm claiming it! (or at least the .46 cents)

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Koli's been sick ever since we got back from the cabin, and Nogs been telling me it's because I let her drink out of the bird bath water while we were there. I disagree, but maybe it is true and I'm a bad Mom for letting her. BUT each time I pulled her away it was like I was ripping her happiness away from her and I just couldn't do it. I'm the parent that will let my kids get away with, well, maybe too much. Nogs the parent who gets a bit more worried about things and is a bit more strict, in a good way. In church, me being "that" parent does not work in my favor. Koli will cry and cry while I'm holding her, finally I give in and let her down to roam. Nog on the other hand, well she wouldn't even try it because when she has in the past it's gotten her no where and she knows he won't let her down no matter how hard she fights. It makes me jealous, I'm thinking, what the! Not fair! But then again I did it to myself. Well I guess I'll be the cool Mom who she'll always come running to first to ask permission to do things but after all I know I'll end up saying, I don't know babe go ask your Dad and see what he thinks. So maybe not. But right now I am most definitely her favorite which is not normal (probably because she was sick and I was the one cuddling her all day which was heaven for me) but that girl loves anyone and everyone. For instance she went up to a complete stranger this morning and started hugging his leg, she looked up because I think she thought it was Nog but then realized it wasn't him and just kept her firm grip till I noticed and pulled her away. ha but still, I'll take it.

Nog had taken Koli one day while I was doing hair, she still wasn't feeling well so after running his first errand she had a major blowout and pooped EVERYWHERE. So he stripped her down and she was left in just her diaper, then she started getting really tired so he thought he would stop by Grandma and Grandpas for some Tax help from Dad for a little. His stay became longer then expected so he came to get me after I finished with hair so I could come put her down for a nap. I came in to get her and I found her like this, snuggled up with Grandma, naked underneath the blanket. Mickey Mouse was playing on the TV and they were passed out. I could not ask for a more wonderful Mother In Law. I LOVE how much she loves her grandchildren and is always spending the best quality time with our little Kollins.

 

I was so excited to take Koli out for a swim for the first time this year, but once I got her swimsuit on her she thought the strap on her neck was Way too tight. Each time I would snap it she would make this face. It was hilarious, then I would take it off and she would be totally fine. Luckily I have one in the mail on it's way to us now that will be just her size. (look at those legs, my favorite)

 

 Nog is the best Daddy, we were driving around running errands together and randomly we saw wild ducks roaming the neighborhood. So he immediately pulled over got Koli out of her car seat and brought her over to see the ducks.

Yep she's still in her pj's and so was I. We are big fans of getting ready much these days. ;)

 

 

 A trip to the plumbing store to get a water heater. I live for these random work errands they are just my favorite time spent together.

 

 Just eating grapes on the counter.

 Nog just ran another race! (jealous) after his race we decided to feed the ducks. I thought ahead and brought the bread. Koli ate most of it before the ducks could eat it. Unfortunately she wasn't too interested in the feeding the ducks part, she just kept trying to get in the pond water, what's up with this girl and filthy water, (no I didn't let her drink it this time) :) So we took her shoes off and she got to stick her feet in and she was quite content with that.

Girls Trip

For Spring Break we took an only girls trip, except for some few small male children, to the cabin. I was quite fun, actually it was the best and I'm so happy I went. Koli had a great time. She drank out of the bird bath. Yep, the bird bath, gross I know but at some point you just gotta laugh and let kids by kids and get dirty and gross and eat worms and all that kid stuff. So yep I let her, (well not the worm part) and she loved every moment of it. She's always walking around with her hands behind her back like shes being mischevious, which I really like and think it's adorable even if she is being mischevious, that's a fun word to say. Makes me feel very educated. Mischevious, ya, I like that. Anyway, she would stroll out front with her hands wrapped behind her, her finger tips just barely able to reach, like so...














And then she would rush over to the bird bath and start to drink that nasty water again, even after I had just given her a fresh bath. Little stinker, I love her.

More Details

So I wanted to write a quick entry telling how we found out....
Nog and I were out on a date. He kept asking me when I was going to take a test, which I thought was so cute because to be honest usually he's discouraging me from taking them since I had each and every month. Ha don't laugh. Actually no I forgot I think twice I resisted which was serious will power. But any way. We had gone to the doctor the month prior to make sure that 1 I was normal and could get Pregnant again and 2 to have more peace of mind about the whole situation. (which definitely worked) About a week or so later we got a call from the doctor saying everything had come back totally normal. That was soo exciting to hear, I just felt like it hadn't been the right timing for us, or for the baby to come and I felt totally okay with that. But just to be sure, My Doctor told me about this medication called "Clomid." Clomid helps you ovulate and making more eggs release so your chances of getting pregnant increases I had read up a ton about it and was really wanting to get on it. Plus the chance of having twins increases which would be SO SWEET! Yes I am one of those people who would LOVE to have twins. Yes it would be insane but I would LOVE it. Any who the Doctor kept trying to scare me it seemed. Told me that one patient he had just had got pregnant with triplets on Clomid, He said of course that's not common but it is possible. I said really? That's awesome! He seemed surprised by my answer so it made me even more happy I said it. My window to take Clomid was closing actually I was one day late to start it so he said we'd better wait till next month. I begged him to change his mind, for the slight chance it might work that month and like a good doctor, he DID, which was a great blessing in itself. :) So we got it a few hours later and the process of detailed instructions if you know what I'm saying... begun. :) Which is why Nog was wanting me to take a test so bad, he said to quote, "I want to see if our hard work paid off" haha I love that man. So the plan was to wait till Sunday to take my test. When I was supposed to start probably Tuesday or Wednesday. After our date we went to the dollar store and got a pregnancy test. If I know I have a cheapo pregnancy test sitting in my bathroom drawer it's, lets just say REALLY hard for me to refuse peeing on it. Ya it really is! So without his permission, right when we got home he went straight into His office and I went straight into the bathroom secretly. I took the test and felt surprisingly really calm. Then minutes went by and I could see a faint faint line and my heart started going crazy. So I knew it was time to wip out my digital "PREGNANT" or "NOT PREGNANT" test that I had been saving for a long time for a moment such as this, to get some real results, because of course no one wants to be fooled by a dollar store test. The results literally took a life time. I was shaking hardcore now and couldn't get a grip on myself but in a good way, if you can imagine. Finally after years (actually minutes) of waiting. It said that BEAUTIFUL 1 letter word that made me fall to my knees and cry. I ran into Nogs office, I said, "Don't be mad, but I took the test." He said, "WHAT? Babe!" I said what do you think (handing him the dollar store test) do you see a line??? He looked at me very seriously now and said, What? Then looked back up at me. Then I said I couldn't be sure so I took another. (while pulling out behind my back the other test) He was shocked and started laughing then the tears came. It was a beautiful moment that I will never forget.

3 weeks later.
I sent a picture of my what I thought, my growing belly to my sister. It was night time and I was soo excited to see my progress I'd made (in showing that is) haha ya that's right I am super super excited to start showing! The sooner the better. I've been waiting anxiously for this belly to get round and for my ankles to get large and I just can't wait! Plus I am going to make my own maternity clothes since my torso is abnormally long and no normal maternity clothes seems to be long enough. (Shown as before in a previous blog post long ago) So my friends in my excitment I took a picture of my belly to me sister Rae, saying, just this. "Okay so there might be a little bit of food in there but I seriously feel like I'm showing I'm sooooo excited.
Picture #1 (you know you can totally see a belly there)

 I woke up the next morning anxious to see if my belly was still the same size. To my surpise it was only food my friends. And we laughed pretty hard about that. So long story short. Grow baby grow, and I'll keep you posted as my belly grows larger and larger till I POP. Now we all got to see a before shot. ;) 

Picture #2

Another Blessing

Journal Entry,
Written on February 9, 2013

Our beautiful Kollins is now 17 months old. She is the happiest most friendly girl I've ever laid eyes on. She has become quite the parrot these days. She's calling me "Annie" instead of mama and can somehow hear everything we say even from the other room and copy it. There is nothing better. She says "Ya!" in her really excited tiny voice, to every thing we ask her and gives us her huge cheesy grins and huge lips kisses all day. She is my pride and joy, I love her more each day if that's possible. When Koli was 9 months old we had decided it was the perfect time to start trying for another little joy to add to our family. We were soo excited to grow our family. Since it didn't take long to get pregnant with Koli we thought we would have no problem again. Months started rolling by and still that pregnancy result stayed negative. Koli was still little but our desire to have another didn't lessen because of it. We wanted to grow our family but for some reason it just wasn't possible. Each month got harder and harder for me until my heart constantly ached for another. Logan was more relaxed about it. He was hopeful each month but as time went on he started to wonder why too. I asked him for a blessing one night at about 4 months of trying. In this blessing I felt it would still take a bit more time. I didn't like that but I trusted it. I was promised that when it happened I would be spiritually and physically prepared for another child, and for another pregnancy. That sentence alone brought me great comfort as I reflected on it through out the up coming months. Meanwhile I was watching my sisters, close friends, seemed like everyone I know get pregnant. I felt so much joy for them truly, but at night while I lay in bed I sometimes wept wanting just that blessing they had received. I wish I had been stronger, this trial was so hard for me to bare at times. But, when I prayed I DID know it would come and that when it did I WOULD be ready. Some months I knew why... I had not been strong enough or had much faith in His plan. And honestly I felt like if I did get pregnant I wouldn't be worthy, I wasn't where I needed to be, because of what the prior blessing had said. I was angry with myself sometimes for being so sad, but through the process of learning how to really trust Him I truly learned how to give Him my pain, and The Lord did take it from me. This last month in particular I have never felt closer to my Maker. By His mercy I no longer ached. I felt amazing, I felt so clearly that THIS was His plan for me. To not dwell on what I didn't have but to rejoice in what I do. I felt healed from my hurt and so grateful for this trial that became such a beautiful learning experience for me that I pray I will never forget. Trials have a way of making us turn toward our Savior and begging for strength that we do not have without him. I feel so much love for my beautiful Kollins, and have so much gratitude for her.
Last night I wept in gratitude. I wept with Logan, praying, thanking my Father In Heaven, because in 9 months, actually 8 we will have another beautiful baby to hold and love. My heart is so full with pure joy,

We are SO happy to announce....!!